The end is in sight!

Okay so The trip to Rome is booked, half the trip to Florida is booked, the lake powell weekend is booked and school is only 3 weeks from over!!! I am so ready for summer! Turns out my kids are too.

On a more fun little side note: On Saturday the ROTC on Dixie College Campus had a little obstacle course. I thought is sounded super fun so I found 3 willing participants and we all went to try our best. I thought there would be 4 or 5 obstacles. I may have been a little off. So Delina, Kelly, Joy, and I get there and they hand us a map of the course. There were 13 obstacles! So come with me on the ride for this was such a funny adventure for us.

First was the rock climbing wall. Not too bad and we got through it pretty quickly. Then comes the one rope bridge. You know the kind you have to hang from upside-down and shimmey from one end to the other holding on with your feet and hands. But again, not too bad.

Then we come to the litter carry obstacle. K not our favorite obstacle. We are already a little tired and our arms are getting a bit floppy. So we have probably about 150 pounds to carry around the water fountain. I tell you it was such a long way around! So we get done with that and our arms are limp. We cant even hold them up in the jogging position to jog to the next obstacle. So we are running along all floppy arms and out of breath like..."come on we can do this".

So then we have to make 8 baskets with these small little basketballs. Which I'm proud to say we did successfully without anyone's arms actually falling of! They felt like they should at any second.

Then we have to do 100 push-ups and 100 sit-ups. Let me clarify before you get all wound up... it was to be split between the 4 of us. So 25 each. Or we could opt for one person to do more but they could do no more than 50. So when we first got there we did a little walk through of the course and Kelly and Delina were like, "oh 25 that's not too bad. We can totally do that no problem." I was like.. uhhh fat girls here. I think I could do maybe 3?

Well so we get there and pump through them pretty good but then we get to the sit-ups and Kelly was like oh my gosh funny!

After the sit-ups we get to move tires. Not car tires or even truck tires. Semi-truck tires is what we get. two of them. So in teams of two we have to move them about 100 yards down and 100 yards back. And we can't pick em up and roll em, we have to up-end them over and over till they pass both lines. Now please keep in mind our arms are screaming at us at this point in the game.

Then just to make sure we have not missed any possible bit of upper body muscle that has not yet been abused in some form or fashion we get to move water jugs, (about 25-30 pounds each) one on each arm, down and back. Kelly made it most of the way and we had to go help her a bit. But man we were a supportive team right!

K so then it is off to the mine field. We have to maneuver through a grid pattern and not get totally killed off. We managed this actually pretty quickly and then off the the low crawl!

The low crawl was it's own little piece of heaven! We had to low craw under these ropes with a weapon and to top it all off they went ahead and filled the pit with mud and about 4 inches of standing water! YESSSS! Joy was so annoyed there was no warning. She may have taken off her shoes and shirt. But she did put a different one one. Whew! After you get out of the muddy pit you then crawl through 2 covert things and then hand your weapon off. So I crawl through the mud (completely soaking my weapon don't worry) and then I look down the tunnel and throw my weapon to the other end and half crawl half midget step through the tunnel. I then repeat this process for the second tunnel. I thought man I'm glad this isn't for real cause the enemy would surely have heard that and gotten to my weapon way before me!

We then get to throw grenades! k not real ones.. I know right where's the fun in that. Well the pit we had to throw them into was a fair way off. So we all pick up a grenade and throw it at the pit. Mine goes in, so I throw another and it goes in too. I then turn to see the very best retarded girl throw from Delina that I have ever seen! She is like wow who gave me this thing? I better not throw anymore. So they give them to me and I hurry and lob them in. But is was so far away that I am having to Happy Gilmore them in.

Then we have to run from one end of the complex to the other. Please let me paint this picture of B - E- A- U - T - Y! There is Joy with a white (well used to be) t-shirt on that is hanging off her like a wet rag and no shoes (she didn't wanna get them ruined in the mud) Kelly and Delina are no better and they have their shoes still on. Then there is me with these capri sweat pants on that were cute before the bottom half was filled with water and little rocks. So we are jogging and with every step you hear us squishing and water is squirting out of the bottom of my capri sweats and running in little brown streaks down my shins. We were beautific!

We then have to shoot this gun and knock all the bottles down. So me and Joy just pick up the guns and start shooting. We were like whatever, hope there is plenty of ammo! ping ping ping ping! It was so fun!

We had so much fun and when all was said and done we got second place overall!!! We got trophies and everything! We laughed about it so hard. When I get the pictures I will post some. We were awesome!

See weekends can be super entertaining

 

School and the Expo

So I love that everyone is like, "so how is school going?" and I am like well it is still going weather I wanna go or not. Turns out I am all done! I just don't want to go anymore and there is still over a month to go. BOO! But the good news is that the scrapbook expo is this weekend!!! Not only do I get to go there and make fun of all the super strange ladies that are clamoring over one another for the next free item, I get to spent the whole weekend with my very best friend!!! Melanie, ready or not here I come! (complete with diet coke and chocolate!)

My Love Hurts!

I keep thinking if I just keep myself running to the point of madness, I won't have time to sit down and fall apart. As it turns out, however it hits you anyway. I dunno why now or what the deal is.... lately life has hit me harder and faster than ever before.

School

Okay so starting school is scary! I am so nervous about it. I'm pretty sure I was not that good the first round and now after like ten years.... well we get the picture!

Everyone keeps saying well what did you want to be when you were little.... um..... k so I don't remember ever wanting to A. grow up or 2. have a job when and if I got there. So that probably doesn't bode well for me either right? Oh well I have decided to become a teacher now! I know a little out there for me but then I will have a schedule pretty close to my kids, and I won't have to worry about not having the same days off as them. So starting tomorrow I am off to start this fun new journey... the best part is my good friends are in it with me. Thanks everyone for all of your support! Lets all pray that I am not too retarted to do this!

BLACK FRIDAY!!!

okay so tomorrow is thanksgiving and blah blah blah. We are all thankfull for something right! Well I love black friday. I love the turkey too but the truth is I am just in it for the shopping! I start at around 3:30am and am done around 10am. I love to go for the good deals but also cause it is always so funny to see who comes out for the fun!!! There is always everything from the person in the pajamas that don't match and probably have not seen the washing machine in at least the past 2 months, and next to her is the girl who had to stay up all night so her hair and makeup wouldn't get messed up for the shopping experience! You know the one i'm talking about... she has big bumped up hair that she wears like a helmet cause when her head moves here hair doesnt, and the makeup that you have on soo thick you can't touch your face or it leaves a divit! Yeah! I love it. I love the people who are in line to check out and see something you have in your hands and ask what it is and where you got it and if there were still some left... then they run off to get one! They didn't even want it till they saw you had one! I find myself laughing outloud sometimes. And then there are the women having a full out brawl over who gets the last of that bike that was on sale at the wal mart! I love those 2 because they get a big enough crowd and the checkout lines get shorter!!! Tee hee hee. But here is the truth. I just like to go and see what I can get and for how much. It is just fun. So here is to all those who enjoy black friday as much as me!

Sundays

So I really thought Scotts Birthday wouldn't be so bad. I got up with a plan and it pretty much all went downhill from there. I hate to fall apart in front of people. But sometimes the wave hits you and you just can't do anything about it.

But Sundays are the worst. I miss Scott the worst then because that was always the day I got the most of him. The day when we would watch some stupid show (not on tv cause we are too cheap for that. Usually on netflix or the computer.) and let it go on forever and ever and just be together. Or we would go to Mindy and Johny's or Kelly and Curts and watch so you think you can dance. May be the lonliest day for the rest of my life it feels like.

We got the house almost completely done. New bathrooms one with the jetted tub that Scott always wanted. Turns out I don't really like them at all, but the boys LOVE it! So good move in the end I guess. New kitchen, appliances (and just when I was getting the hang of our crappy stove), and everything. We are getting new carpet and doors and trim this week. But none of it is at all worth it. I keep feeling so ungrateful when people ask me how I like having all this new stuff I try to be happy and give a good response but the truth is I don't seperate that if I had Scott I wouldn't have this stuff and it is not worth the trade. But it is the compromise to keeping the house I guess. So if I ever had to sell it I would be in a better position to do so. I am thankful. But I have had lifechanging and a new kitchen is just not it.

I just miss Scott so much lately and am trying so hard to throw myself into the other things that I have like my church callings and whatever other projects I can come up with but the truth is it just hurts all the time now. I guess as a result the ward activities are very well planned out and well in advance. But it doesn't help because at the end of the day I just want to be alone and cry. I am so glad to have friends to go bug and family here who don't mind if I just show up randomly.

It was fast sunday and I always think I should get up and bear my testimony but then I just don't have the courage. What do I say that I know I get to see My Love again and I am thankfull? Or the truth that I am sick of the getting kicked in the teeth with these life lessons. I do know that the church is true and now more than ever I am so thankful for my ward and for the simple act of going to church. But it is like Brenda said "he won't give it to you if he won't see you through it... but it makes you wonder why he trusts you so much." And I guess that is it. Why did he trust me with such a big thing? And why do I need to be alone? Especially when I truely love Scott with every piece of me? We are a great team. I don't think I want all the answers, just a few more than I have. I am so thankful for everyone who goes out of their way to help me all the time though. I am just already tired of being alone.